i remember being there with you 

she was there, too.

i remember trying so hard to let you be

to let you breathe.

but then again,

i couldn't.

because you had that sad look on your eyes

and everything around you seemed so dark.

i remember thinking to myself i would do anything

and everything

to make you smile again.

i could see from that distance

that you were hurting.

that she was hurting you.

and i remember

stepping between the two of you

when she said the ultimate dagger.

i remember hearing your heart breaking

i remember the colors fading to gray in your face

i remember the way your body turned to nothing

but boneless limbs.

the way you lost control.

how i knew i had to hold you.

so i did.

i let you lean on me.

i let your weigh and your soul lean on my strength

a strength you had given me.

and i run.

i remember hearing your breaths

your sweet breaths

keeping you alive second by second

for me.

i remember desperately trying to find a place to rest

a place to keep you safe

a place for both of us to hold on to each other.

but most of all

within the darkest moment

and the saddest minutes

between grace land

and pure hell

i remember you whispering my name

and begging me with the deepest love

don't leave me.

stay.

and i did.

i do.

for you.